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DS + CNYV

Dim Sum stands for the total Sum of the Dim-witted.
hahah. okay, i'm being sarcastic here.
Dim Sum stands for the Mandarin equivalent of Dian Xian.
meaning 'touching the heart with a finger'.
why is it so?
i don't know. either they made Dim Sum with lotsa sincere efforts to touch the customer's heart with it. or it literally translates into "eat a bit of wishes" (yi dian xin yi).

anyway, had Dim Sum brunch with Josh at Crystal Jade TM.
so angry with him really~
he didn't tell me he must go home early untill i was out.
he told his parents he was going to 85 market.
and he still had to rush home to buy lunch for his Dad... fish porridge from 85.
couldn't he just tell me that he can't go out and had to buy lunch for his Dad etc?
and not come all the way to Tampines and rush lunch?!?!?!?
what kinda time management is that?
i am so pissed!

Joshua! if next time u cannot come out or have to do something at home or what,
pls kindly let me know and not meet me that day.
i don't like it when i come out, meet u for less than an hr then goodbye. irritating.
shall not talk to u today.

meeting Don for dinner. escargots. yucks.
Don keeps cockroaches and snapping turtles as pets. told u he's weird right?
i'm broke! no money to club. this feeling sucks...
i missed Adidas Spring/Summer collection showcase at Zouk last nite. bloody hell!

i hate CNYV.
aka i hate Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day.
they're stupid, expensive and not fun.
CNY = no one to go out with, and no one's at home.
no need buy new clothes also. no relatives so no red packets.
reunion dinner? me, Grandma, Godfather, Godmother and their son. yep... 'reunion'.

and what's with all the red paper crackers, gold glittery decorative ornaments,
pussy willow flowers, assortment of nuts and cookies....?
have you ever wondered how 'Chinese' were these things? or are they just an invented tradition?
where did pineapple tarts come from? China doesn't have pineapples or Kueh Lapis.
Bak Kua? that thinly sliced sweet BBQ pork. again, it's not available in China!
they've never even heard of it also.
is it a case of invented traditions? traditional-ized commercial products?
or it's something unique to Malaya? well, i don't use the word "Singapore"
coz we used to be part of a larger scheme of things. it's only after 196X then we became S'pore.
i'm better off going on a vacation! but there's no available tickets outta S'pore.

V-day = day when stupid people spend lotsa $ on stupid things making others happy.
it should be renamed April's Fool.
call it bad memories. call it never been loved.
i've had 2 really painful Valentine's Day and so, that's it. i hate that stupid day.
pls don't come up to me and say, "Happy Valentine's Day" coz i'm gonna slap u hard.
it's NOT happy. i am not happy.

V-day is so commercialized!
when did chocolates, teddy bear and roses came to symbolize 'love'?
we also give chocolates during CNY, Christmas, or even as birthday present?
or is it a case where chocolates are a universal representation of "i can't find a present for you so this is the most convenient one?"
why do guys give one bouquet of roses? why not one stalk of rose to represent love, one stalk of lily to represent purity, one stalk of sunflower to represent warmth? more creative right?

what's so special about candlelight dinner at restaurant just on that very day?
if i changed the setting, to a candlelight dinner at the balcony at home,
with the neighbour downstairs singing Hokkien KTV and dinner's a steak bought from the Western food stall at the coffee shop downstairs, how romantic is it? does it still hold the same significance?

love isn't expressed annually. it's expressed daily.
i don't believe in love anyway. who are we to say that we're in love, or we love so-and-so?
no. none of us are fit to say "i love you". coz basically, men is selfish. we are motivated by self-interest. altruism? hardly a trait of human.
God loves. God is unselfish. God sent his only son to redeem his people.
that's why i celebrate Good Friday, Easter, and Christmas.
festival of Lent and Advent. these are festivals which matter to me.

therefore, i am not going to get any v-day present for anyone. joshua included.
i don't want anything too. i have God's love, we all do. i love God and my family. that's enough.
CNY? gonna go club on the first day since it's Wed nite. hopefully not too many malays or indians...

oh, i'm not going to Krabi already.
Mum said that there's a fear of epidermic outbreak there, the corpses have not been fully disposed of also. not a good time to holiday there. sigh.

posted by Veen @ 14:04